BE BETTER N BETTER

Double Standard Policies

2006-08-08T22:15:00.000+07:00

Speechless for what had happened…

Cry, Mad, Upset, Dissapointed I dunno what else I can say…
May Allah granted them Heaven… Firdaus Heaven…
What they call of human rights…
Are they blind.. Dumb… and Heartless???… :(((((((
Simply and obviously Double standard Policies…
My Ultimate Dream when they will unified… so we are not powerless :((( stop being selfish and ignorance…

Net Detoxification I

2006-08-08T22:11:00.000+07:00

Hmm it s been a week without net at home
Hmm miss ma OL friends much… what the pity is they are mostly from different countries.. so if I was sneaking online at the office nobody online :((
Good things I can do some other things… but really something is missing…
Some friends spam me at ma mobile phones coz I put ma number at Yahoo… lol but if I reply and chat with them all.. I will bankrupt…. :P :P

I m listening some nice Beatless’ songs now.. aaahhhhhh High School flash back memories lol… remembering when on break time we shouted out loud singing together with friends.. Guitar, table and claps hand as our instruments :P.. Sweet high school memory… not much burden…
Mostly are.. Ticket to ride.. Love me do… Obladi Oblada… Yesterday… Hey Jude Anna.. (everytime I sing hey Jude I felt sooooooo blue dunno why may b coz I know why this song written)

Sssssttttt remembering some1 gave me a complete luxurious books of Beatless songs…it s really cool… hehehe … but sorry friend I couldn’t grant u more than a friend… :P :P :P

Michelle (the guitar soooo nice)
Michele ma belle … these are words that go together well… my Michelle.
Michele ma belle sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble tres bien ensemble… I love you I love you I love you… That s all I want to say… Until I find a way I will say the only words I know that you’ll understand… pla pla pla plaaaa…

Come Together (one of favorites – bass and song are cool)
Here comes old flat top, He comes…. Groov-ing up Slow ly, He got .. Joo Joo eye ball, He one… Ho ly rol ler, He got.. hair down to his knees. Got to be a jok-er, He just do what he please.
He wears no shoe-shine. He got… toe jam foot ball. He got.. Monkey fin ger. He shoot … Co ca Co la. He says…
I know you you know me. One thing I can tell you is you got to be free. Come together right now.. o ver me… bla bla blaaaaaaaa

I will (sooooooooo nice.. )
Who knows how long I ve loved you yeaah… You know I love you still. Will I wait a lonely life time.. if you want me to I will… mmmm… for if I ever saw you.. I didn’t catch your name. But It never really mattered.. I will always feel the same… Love you forever and forever love you with all my heart.. Love you whenever we’re together Love you when we’re a part… and When at last I find you.. Your song will fill the air…. Sing it loud so I can hear you.. Make it easy to be near you.. for the things you do en dear me to you. aaaa. You know I will….I wiiilll… Da… da da.. da .. da.. da da da…. da da da da daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
/me aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh fainted…

Lots of nice songs.. I couldn’t write it alllll lol

You are just indescribableeeeee ma hunny bunny chubby bum bum :*)

2006-08-05T21:38:00.000+07:00

When the words stumble..
When the words fail..
I write it anyway… weeeeeeeeeeeeeee :P :P :P lol

Don’t u know may b u see me like hmmm a bit ignorance hmmm I m not that ignorance … I do love and care about u with ma own way…
Don’t u know as I found again ur letter and poems when were still in relationship I think I m in love with u again for a second time… oh myyyyyyyyyyy (wondering where are these poems gone nowadays :P)
Don’t u know as I had been around and around and I couldn’t find as nice as u.. as patient as u… as honest as u… as sweetie as u… as frankly as u… as funny as u… as understandable as u … u just loveable and I think no words can describe how wonderful u r …

U don’t like music but u can stand with ma taste…
U don’t like to fooling around but u can stand with ma interest…
U don’t like with net and stuff but u can stand with ma craziness..
U don’t like dance but u dance with me anyway :P ...
U gave me quite open flexibility and that s sooo precious …

So what we have in common…. Hmmm I dunooo but I think we ve lots more than we can thoughts and imagines… no need to list it one by one … we know each other how’d we feel… that s what make us still together hand in hand and side by side... till we meet again in Heaven…. aaahhhhhhhh fainted…… May Allah bless our marriage.. :*)

U won’t know how much I love u …
Ur acceptation unconditionally more than enough for me..
With ma strength and weakness I love u just the way u are…
My hunny bunny, My hubby, My Father and My Forever BoyFriend :D
Thank u just being uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

( U r fourty and OMG I m going on thirty six hmmmm)

Ur secret admire :*) naaaaaaahhhhhhhh not that secret :P

(I am who I am ur dumber in sweet words… ur unromantic wife…midnight July 22 2006)

2006-07-22T13:41:00.000+07:00

i m closing ma eyes n typing i dunno what i will type but i want to toy so here we go i m typing see howmuch typo error :P lol.. i dont min di dont care.. just type.. am i crazy no no no just a bit lune Yay how dare u to t say that lol... hmm actually i m in confuzzle what i ve to write for ma hunny bunny sweety bumbum hey im still closing ma eyes when i m typing see how it goes lol

Help Help... 8-|

2006-07-21T20:06:00.000+07:00

Ups here we go again.. i had been a bit busy not enough time to write blogg.. Yay!!!! lieeeeeeer.. yeah i ve been so drowned with game.. OMG!!! what r u doin SIlly!!... hey i did try several times but it keep dragg me in :((((..

I love this minds games or mentally games as i can say

2006-04-08T19:51:00.000+07:00

Why i felt like this .. cannot devine what i felt.. trembling again.. it s not about love or similar but it s about questioning something, someone and the truth... who were starting all these things. Again my friend questioning about who i am. Sent some1 to test me? give me a bunch of wierd statements? what was that? but again nothing happen without a reason. This inspired me to do something.. like making a small research, to know how people react with in some range of age, set some1 up, make a attracting nick hi hi hi (i catched him lol) but what i found they are lots of idiots, some bastards, sheep in indisguise. Only very few good man, the genuine ones, but it s too early to judge isnt it. I think i should terminate it.. i dont want to hurt anybody coz there is crazy man captivated by this new nick personality lol and also there is a person who getting crazy with his own curiousity about me.. he he he.. should i happy with this? naaaaaaa it s just for fun.

Hold on one second...

2006-04-02T11:08:00.000+07:00

I always be able to be back on the Ground!!!!!!!!!!!!.

a new name

2006-03-27T16:10:00.000+07:00

Friend X = sis i will give u a new name
me = what?
Friend X = yes.. i'll give u a new name u like it?
me = :-?
Friend X = okey ur new name is Sara? i love this name and would like to give it to my sister
me = Oh thats lovely.. thank uuuu ..

another friend
Friend Z = okey bye bye Tota
me = :-o what Tota means??

ha ha ha anyway i appreciated true friendship

can't stand to wait till next 4 days...

2006-03-27T15:14:00.000+07:00

Yippieeeee........ Next friday i will meet my best friendssss it always be nice and fun to meet them... again and again and again.. it become regularly now.. at least once a month we meet eachother... :-)... nice to chill out with them sharing knowledges, information, new gossip, problems and secret affair ??? naaaaaaaaaaaaa :))

questioning why

2006-03-27T14:51:00.000+07:00

hmm now i dunno how to start.. reliasing whoever ur real friend sometimes is hard.. it should be counted with times.. could i say u r my best friend if i only knew this person just a couple months ago.. i can say yes and i can say no.. coz it s really happenned... i met 2 new persons who i counted as my best friend.. but now i realizing the one i could rely on as a best friend is only one.. which i called as my online sister she is the dearest one. But the other one i just found it last night (actually i had investigated naaa not investigated .. just tested) that this friend is hardly said as a best friend how come as a best insulting a friend. I m trying to understand although this friend said only joking but i cannot take it.. toooo sensitive for me and i think this friend knew ab that.. but why he did that to me? he really knew that i would be unpleased with such a thing. i accepted his appolized but i can take it nomore. We stiil friend i guess but not best friend like he always repeated thousand times. ;-)

the bright side of my foolishness

2006-03-10T10:47:00.000+07:00

see.. i always find something i can learn even from my foolishness... now i m eager to learn more about my own relig.. to get to know better and trying to a better person though. *S* i m happy now.. i will leave bit by bit and learn bit by bit.. it s not hard to do as long as there is a serious willingness... this is really the positive side from what had happened a couple days a go..
I feel releaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Foolishness

2006-03-08T18:34:00.000+07:00

Gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrr
i really hate my stupidityyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
i know i have to avoid argueing directly
i know my limitations of knowledge
it s just make me such a greatest foolest in the world
omg omg omg....gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrr
sok tau banget sih gw....
:hammer::hammer::hammer:
i don't know how to save my face...
make me really burned in the stove...

calm down.. take a deep breath...
streching...
say istigfar..
listen to the soft musics
think about other wonderful things
forget it..

i know there is always something i can learn
even from my stupidity...
yeah.. the best excuse.. i guess.....

huh.....
what am i suppose to do now...

Son.....

2006-03-04T23:52:00.000+07:00

I hope it s not too late ... it's almost over midnight...
hmm I cannot think the perfect words to express.. I m not good in expressing what i feel..

Ten is 1 and 0...
Ten is full
Ten is just perfect...

from your massy I learn how to fix it up
from your ignorance I learn how to give more understanding
from your anger I learn how to be more patient
from your innocence I learn how to be honest with myself

I learn a lot of things from you ..
I learn how to be a real mother..

I know and believe... you will become a better and better person each day
at this age.. as I learned.. this is your transition of your consciousness (is it the appropriate word? hope so)

from now on.. I won't push you to be what I want you to be..
just be yourself.. find anything which more fun and comfortable with you and you believe that you good at it...
I ll be always at your side to be your mother and your friend...

May Allah always bless you and guide you to the straight path..

Basia

2006-03-03T11:44:00.000+07:00

Waters of March..

A stick, a stone
it's the end of the road
it's the rest of the stump
it's a little alone
it's a silver of glass
it is life, it's the sun
it is night, it is death
it's a trap, it's a gun
the oak when it blooms
a fox in the brush
the knot of the wood
the song of the thrush
the word of the wind
the cliff, a fall
a scratch, a lump
it is nothing at all
it's the wind blowing free
it's the end of a slope
it's a beam, it's a void
it's a hunch, it's a hope...

That s only a part of basia's song.. Java Jazz Festival is starting today..but regreted the last news I got, Basia and Danny white will not be performing .. here on JJF..
I think i can guess the reason is...
he he he.. what else security reason indeed.

Hopefully next year or next time or whenever..
they can make it

Just so so ..

2006-03-03T11:09:00.000+07:00

This morning nothing special.. but okey... no complain..
Last night i called my old college mate.. we had chit chat for an hour.. quite amuzing after my horrible time yesterday we talked about old time passes and it s always nice remembering the sweetness, and silliness .. even we could laugh our bitterness he he he Laughing all the way long.. ha ha ha ha ha ha... we will meet next friday...

:P

2006-03-02T14:47:00.000+07:00

O la la ....
I m writing in tortured English.... ha ha ha..
who cares anyway....
or
is there anyone wanna care.... he he he...

don't ever ever..

2006-03-02T12:38:00.001+07:00

Oh my..... what happened today...
A series of hatred feeling ... gggrrrr...
Now... some1 is lying..
the worst is .. my own friend..

I hate it when some1 is telling lies ..
Hate it very much ..

It s not a big deal afterall but why have
to be lie?...

Not deserved..

2006-03-02T11:18:00.000+07:00

gggggrrrr I m really sick of those guys in that forum..
what ever we said .. or explained just turn to against us.. ggrrrr need someone with *lawyer minded* i guess..
their aim not to understand but to attack other relig..
my friend said that they are not racists.. but sometimes nervous.. *Sigh*
nervous is not the appropriate word i guess... they are frigtened to dead.. phobia if i can say..
They are only a bunch of narrow minded people..
and they don't deserve to get our attention..
W'd better silence.. for a while.........

Silence
(by Aco sopov)

If you carry with you something unsaid,
something which pains and burns
bury it withn the depths of silence
the silence will say it for you

iya ya..

2006-03-02T10:41:00.000+07:00

Pagi ini sambil dengerin Alicia Keys-a woman's worth

Kenapa harus sebel sih itu kan haknya dia.. ha ha ha..
Berarti saya juga bisa berbuat hal yang sama.. hmm
tapi bukan dendam loooo maksudnya ya santai aja..
no hard feeling..

Precious ones

2006-02-25T19:41:00.001+07:00

My real dearest friend
who already stick with me for yearss
you have been like my own sister
you always be there when i need some1 to talk to..
thank you for listening i really appreciate u very much..
we had have share our happiness and bitterness
thank you for being such a great friend all these years

My online sister
welcome back..
I miss you so much..
thanks for your advice and support..
it s such a great help for me..
I know you only in this last 2 months..
but i feel like i knew you for yearrsssss..

U both are wonderful..
I hope this friendship won't last forever...

Oh..

2006-02-25T14:23:00.000+07:00

What am i searching for..
I m lost..
Enough when it s enough
I'll be back to mine..
Stand on the ground...

Flying for a while..
hmm nothing to be regretted
There always be something i can learn

but

if i only knew..
if i only knew..
I won't...

$@#^&^#@*??

2006-02-16T16:49:00.001+07:00

OMG !!!!
How long I had been ignoring you...
Speechless
So many things happened...
Even I cannot write one...
My fingers
My heart
My brain
My soul
are shaking
gggggrrrrrrrrrrrr
Mixture emotions
Mixture flavours ??? lol
Fruit Punchs.. i guess.. ha ha ha
what s that...
uuuuhhuuuuuuu
knock knock
r u there....
Aaaahhhhhhh...

Pak RT o Pak RT

2005-12-28T11:00:00.000+07:00

Uda ganjel perut sama pastel, lemper n teh manis...

Langsung buka rumah baru...

Hik uda ada komen.. eng ing eng.. wuihnya tuambah sueneng... jagoan2nya uda mampir...

Malu masih berantakan..

Semalam abis pemilihan KRT (baca: Ketua Rukun Tetangga).

Tidak satupun warga yang mau meggantikan pak RT periode sebelumnya... dengan seribu satu macam alasan (termasuk saya siih.. yang banyak alasan he..he..). Alhasil yaa dengan berat hati pak RT yang lama menjadi KRT lagi... (tinggal bu RT ngomel-ngomel)

Jadi KRT bukan profesi yang kita pilih tapi kita dipilih oleh masyarakat artinya kita dianggap mampu untuk menjalankan tugas tersebut (yang pasti harusberjiwa sosial tinggi..) Tidak ada diskripsi pekerjaan yang jelas... bikin surat keterangan utk macem2 keperluan, urusan keamanan, kebersihan, pengonrak kabur lari ke RT, suami istri berantem pak RT yang dibawa-bawa, belum perayaaan perayaan sibuk minta sumbangan siapin ini itu pokoke apa aja bisa masuk ke pak RT.

Asli jadi Pak RT ato bu RT sebenarnya ladang amal tapi alamak berat ngadepin warga yang begini begitu. Uda cape tersita waktu tenaga pikiran tapi ada aja warga yang masih menuntut ini itu.. Malah ada satu ibu minta saya ato suami saya untuk gantiin pak RT yang sekarang (pdhal dia tau lo saya deket ama bu RT) katanya pak RT pilih kasih.. blok2 tertentu aja yang diperhatiin.. ngga salah ni ibu ngomong gini... kayanya yang saya perhatiiin ga tuh... beneran .... pak n bu RT beserta anak2nya udah all out bantuin untuk kepentingan warga (banyak makasih untuk keluarga pak RT..) mangkanya dia dipillih lagi lagi lagi dan lagii..

Heran kenapa banyak orang lebih banyak menuntut daripada memikirkan apa yang telah kita beri.. Contohnya ibu tadi setahu saya bayar ini itu susah agak ribet (ini saya tau karena suami Sek-RT) Sumbang materi nggak, sumbang tenaga nggak, sumbang usul sih banyak (banyak maunya!).

Untuk siapa aja yang jadi KRT salut deh.. yang ikhlas .. semoga amal2nya mendapatkan ridho ALLAH SWT.. Amiiiin... :-)

Don't be too excited..

2005-12-27T15:10:00.001+07:00

Ehemm sangking senengnya tulisan ampe berantakan gitu ya..

Bunda harus banyak belajar lagi bikin yang lebih baik..

Tahap kedua pinjam scanner ama adek...

Aduh Faiz n Hanif bunda lagi seneng banget.. kalian lagi pada nginep sih di rumah Nyai (baca: nenek) Ka Ardi (baca: mantan pacar) tau ga.. nggaakk :P he..he..he.. bunda ga gatek-gatek banget kok... he..he..he..

Alhamdulillah 7 hari sudah pasang internet ada hasilnya juga... he..he..segitu aja udah seneng :-)

Aduuuh sueneeeng banget.....

2005-12-27T14:07:00.000+07:00

Alhamdulillah......... seneng banget akhirnya bunda yang satu ini kesampaian juga pasang internet dirumah... 3 tahun sudah bunda dirumah ... ga ngantor lagi.... rasanya *something is missing..... kangen temen-temen... kangen pulang malem kalo lagi sibuk.... kangen kalo lagi dicemberutin boss.... dengerin gosip gosip kantoran....... kangen ngadepin ibu boss yang cerewet... aduuh banyak deh......

Dirumah sibuk juga sih....ngurus anak n ayahnya, jadi tukang kredit, buka toko, jalanin bajaj bajuri......ngadepin orang-orang yang aneh2 dari ibu-ibu ampe tukang bajaj.. :-) ha ha..ha... what a really different world....

Dirumah asyiknya kalo lagi cape bisa istrirahat kapan aja n tidur kapan aja hi..hi.....
Dikantor mana bisaaaaaa
Pagi2 udah pada sibuk kejar-kejaran waktu
Di rumah.. yaa asyik aja... tinggal jalan kaki ke toko...itupun ga tiap hari, nagih kredit itupun ga tiap hari, nasehatin tukang bajaj yang ngeyel juga ga tiap hariiiii.... pokoknya waktu bunda sendiri yang atur...ga ada boss yang ngawasin... ga ada temen yang komplain... pokoknya asyik-asyik aja deh...

Tapi apa yaaaa..... kok aneh...ada sesuatu yang hilang.. apa ya..
Aduh ternyata bunda takut... takut tambah gatek kelamaan dirumah....pingin kerja lagi kasian anak2...Ga punya temen yang bisa diajak diskusi (taela mau diskusi apa seh!) .... ada siiih tapi jauh mahal bayar telponnya he..he..he....kumpul sama ibu-ibu rumahan bukannya ga fun... cuma lagi bosen aja kali yaa... ibu ibu rumahan lebih peduli dan perhatian (tapi kadang terlalu peduli jadi hese!!) obrolannya lama-lama nyasar ga karuan...ikut arisan...pengajian ada manfaatnya juga sih... tapi tetep aja lagi bosen... mungkin lagi berada di titik jenuh yang tertinggi (taela kayak gunung aja)...

Apa ya.... Dari setahun kemarin pengin beli komputer... baru juni thn ini kesampaian.... dari Juni kemarin pingin pasang internet Alhamdulillah kesampaian baru tanggal 2o Desember kemareeennn

Internet??? Belagu banget sih emak-emak aja pake mo pasang internet segala...he..he..he.. pengen jadi bunda yang agak gaul dikit n ga gatek-gatek amat....

Tiap bulan biasa suka jalan-jalan sama anak2 cari buku apa aja... eh ga sengaja ketemu buku Labibah Zein... pinky pula warnanya... aduh tuh buku asyik banget...bikin geregetan...serasa bener2 dibawa ke dunia lain... apalagi *perempuan dengan lelaki maya... alamak endingnya bener2 diluar dugaaann.. wuiz.. pokoke kudu dibaca... nih judulnya Addicted to Weblog...

Sangking excitingnya punya internet ampe lupa waktu...keluar masuk sana sini... masuk chatting room disana sini... ternyata iiiiiihhhhhh sereeeeeem banyak orang "sakit" .. pengen deh ketemu tempat yang enak buat sharing knowledge or apalah..pokoke friendship aja gitu loch...

Baru siang hari ini kepikiran bikin blog.... apaan sih blog...nyoba bikin aaahhhh (kaya nyoba resep bikin kue kale ya..) walhasil ya seperti ini masih carut marut....hi..hi..hi.. masih malu-maluin.. (lha wong ga biasa nulis... wis pokoke.. tancap gas ajaa... broomm brooommmm)

Punten buat semua.. yang masih binun baca apaan sih nih... gitu kali ya pikirnya...

Ini cuma seorang emak yang ga kepingin gatek-gatek amat... hi..hi.. norak deh..